Serated Cacophony of the Heart

There is no doubt about it, folks. A change is gonna come and it’s coming down not like a huricane…but of slow drops of progress. At my 17 years as a Christian …I’ve only been recently taking the steps to actually walking closer with Christ.  It’s big leap considering there is a big part of me that want s no part of the usual do-it-yourself pretentions & customs that has so far mired the great word of Christ’s grace. I also don’t want to give people the idea that I’ve become this bible thumping moron that lacks more in compasion (and common sense) than in department on how much verses he could recite in one breath.

Let me the first to admit to you all… I haven’t been the best of individuals ever since i saved 3 years ago. There are a lot of unresoved issues I need work out, tonnes of prorities I need to consider. If you were to ask me why I’m still in a rut after theres three years I’d have to say to you that as a human I’m liable to be as flawed and erronous as you. Face it, kids… the walk of a Christians isn’t  instantanious or in a blink of an eye like some people. For the most part it’s a progression of construction and deconstruction, learning and unlearning, falling and geting again…. and boy! do we look like total jackasses when we go about  this! But the great thing is….for all the succesions of transgressions we make along the way in our Christian walks…it really does not matter anymore because all nulified in the cross.

ANd I also believe the person to look to is not the preachers or our leaders …but to Christ himself. Think it this way… he took our place in the waitng room of our divine judgement and was badly maimed and disfigured  in order for all the blessings and fogivness to be given to us… and to think that we could  pathetically try to appease him with our efforts of charity and piety when all the while it already payed for on that cross that 2000 years ago.

It’s too good to be true….but in fact it IS the truth.